Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.
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I guess I'm a switch who prefers to be a sub. I can be a dom-- but it kind of drains me. In... a good way, I think? I'm always content afterwards but it takes a really specific mood for me to get there.
So yeah, a switch who enjoys subbing a lot. I've known about this since... a very, very young age, however I've not always had so many tendencies towards subbing. I used to be dominant for many, many years, but I ended up burning myself out on it. Now it's just a dish I sample occasionally, though I try to do better than I used to with it. Back in the day I was fairly immature about it and thought that the pain/ownership was most of it, so there was an emotional disconnect. I'm honestly glad I've gotten over that misconception or I wouldn't be as content as I am now, though I'm still figuring stuff out with help along the way.
And to be honest, BDSM is such an extensive topic that I can't exactly go over everything in it that interests me. There's so much that I like about it. The taboo parts, the fact that sessions can practically make you bare yourself to the world, and enjoy it besides. The emotional commitment, the emotional gains, the satisfaction both physical and mental.
I like the pain, too - that part is hella exquisite to me, though I have issues with my thresholds. It's so... liberating. It makes me feel like through pain I am complete, and allowed to de-stress from life in general. It's the same with giving myself up to Master; I guess you could liken it to a confessional, in a way. Expose your sins ( or yourself ) to the world and through it you'll become at peace with yourself.
On the domination side, I'll say now that I really like taking care of people. It might seem like that's the slave's job, to take care of their Master, but if you don't give direction and if you don't make sure to assuage doubts, fears, insecurities, etc. - a basic part of 'care', so to speak - then it will be difficult to have that sort of 'relationship' going on at all. A slave can't read your mind!
I also like... having someone's trust placed in my hands. It's not just for myself but for them as well; doing well with that trust is a high-end compliment to how I preform.
It's also a great way for me to take out my aggressions in a constructive way. I don't go beating the absolute everloving shit out of my subs but getting to dominate someone fully is a way to say 'fuck you!' to parts of my life which I can't control.
I guess that's it for this post; I'd get into everything but I only have so much time and room, you guys!
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